Tomorrow I will start voluntary service in the local orphanage. I have already been there last week to check whether I will handle that hard task. To be honest it was difficult for me. First I got there, the supervisor of the orphanage was busy, because some parent came to talk. I stood in the corridor and saw some children passing by - one boy and 2 girls.
One of the girl, she looked like she had 6/7 years old, stopped and introduce herself, than she started to asking questions. She acted as she know me and had no barrier. It was like hundred question per minute and I felt weird. I was more embarrassed than a child.
There are 14 or 15 people form 6 to 17 years old. Boys are so aggressive. When they were asked to get ready, because we were supposed to go to the circus, few boys started to tease one another and start a fight which was 'for fun'. I was shocked, but wasn't frighten. But what surprise me was that they acted as normal even as I was somebody new. I said them to stopped and thought that, maybe, because I was a stranger they would stop, but they wouldn't.
Children there are either to open and emotional or aggressive and shameless. These 2 girls are the only girls there, and they truly want to know everything about me. I feel a bit sorry for them and even for these boys. Before I went there I said that I will try to treat them as normal people, that is why I try to not look at them with compassion, but sometimes it is hard. I hope it will not overwhelm me and my psychology.
